Questioning love

I'm questioning my love for u. How could I hit u so hard or at all if I love u? By reasoning that does not compute. I don't hurt people that I love. Maybe the last almost 7 years of u consistently acting poorly towards me has finished any love for u off. I had the idea from 100s of years of traditional history that when a couple marries adults that's what they got...an adult. Last weekend you promised not to do what u did yesterday. How can I love a promise breaker who has been inappropriate to me for so many years? I must be a very forgiving person. To be that forgiving that's like being a doormat and I was taken advantage of for years. If you listen to that song or read the lyrics, it says "could it be...". I deserved a lot more than I've gotten out of you. A lot more means even-tempered help. That I did not get but instead got a spoiled child response when I needed a mature adult. I question my love for u 'cause it seems I have recoiled it. I did that because you've acted like something other than what I married, so if I loved that I would not be true to myself. Like I said I'm questioning. I also wonder how u can say u love me and act like u don't instead.

The mic is broken. I bought one.