Another writing

I got to searching a little bit on the Internet today and I searched for " MS, bedridden, sex". My search did not yield any results, so I'm going to spell it out here. I have found that MS affects everybody differently. Today Jack Osbourne was on"The Talk" after his diagnosis of MS. He was spouting all kinds of nice stuff but he didn't state the reality of the situation as an everyone is affected differently. I am an extreme case. I was diagnosed at the age of 31. My symptoms at that time were numbed top of the thigh and trouble seeing when driving. I am now almost 39 and went from the initial symptoms and still walking around to now at age 38 not being able to stand or remember much. I am completely unable to walk and am bedridden. Things I will not give up and tell I'm dead or my brain refuses to do it our paying the bills online, doing our taxes, watching TV shows, half of those put me to sleep, and most of all sex. Sure I can't do much in the sex department but I can still have sex. I still have some upper body strength. It is enough to push up to get on my knees. Luckily I have a very accommodating husband who gets a positive effect out of me getting turned on by ham and getting up on my knees quickly. I have had to adjust so much and so has he. Talk about a flat lining any expectations we had to do both. So at this point I have to focus on things I can do. Luckily my sex organs still operate correctly. I have to be grateful for the smallest things in life. Any little thing that my husband does that's good, I am so grateful for and I have learned to take nothing for granted. Sure I like to do lots of stuff like go out to a restaurant for dinner, look at horses, right horses, give the cats food, cook dinner for Andrew and do the dishes along with doing all the household chores including outdoor chores.